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Dec. 1st, 2013

dear lj chandler

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For Good has been popping up everywhere, in a lot of different parts of my life.

It brings me bittersweet feelings.

Feb. 20th, 2013

smile becks

SWEET LORD ABOVE.

MY FAVOURITE TEACHING RESOURCES WEBSITE HAS ONLY GONE AND USED A BLOG POST I WROTE FOR THEM.
OHMYGOD.
WHAT IS LIFE?
WHAT IS AIR?

OHMYGOD.

Why am I freaking out about this?
Interesting...

Feb. 2nd, 2013

smile becks

GOING TO AMERICAAAAAAAAAA.

OHMYGOD.

AUGUST CAN NOT COME SOON ENOUGH.

PURCHASED FLIGHTS TODAY.

SO SO EXCITED.

Jan. 19th, 2013

dear lj chandler

(no subject)

I have a lot to say but no words to say it with. 
And it makes me feel even worse.
So much has happened lately, and I don't even know how to even start talking about it.

I feel like I go one step forward and 2 steps back. 

I'm doing well at pretending I'm coping with everything that is changing, but I'm not. Well, I am because a lot is constantly changing so there's no solid thing to hold on to, so I have to hold on to myself, but some times I just want to shout STOPPPPPPPPPPPPP and let something be constant for once. 
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Dec. 16th, 2012

dear lj chandler

Weight loss update: 17/18 weeks on.

Hello! 
So it's about 17 or 18 weeks on in my weight loss journey and altogether I have lost...

2 and a half stone (and half a pound)!!!!

I am so bloody proud of myself.
I know Christmas is going to be a challenge but it's one I feel quite ready for. 

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In other news:
  • I have a crush on a girl from work. We went out together yesterday. It wasn't a date, but it went from being just coffee to being coffee twice and we went to see The Hobbit. I don't know if she's interested, but right now I don't mind. I'm having fun just hanging out with her and being her friend. If something happens, great, if not then it's fine, I've made a new friend. I feel like I've proper grown up because I'm saying this, because I really don't mind. It would be amazing for something to happen but it wouldn't be the end of the world for me. I am so ridiculously attracted to her, and she proper makes me laugh so it's not that I'm not into her, it's just that I love being surrounded by people who make me happy. I've turned a page and I feel like I'm finally becoming who I am meant to be, not just someone who is because being is easier than trying to become. (I realise to most people this statement won't make any sense but it does to me haha)
  • It's almost Christmas. One more week at work. 5 days and counting down.
  • I need to start thinking of what I want for my birthday (I know, it's just been Christmas but my birthday is in January).
  • My mam is going into hospital in less than a month, and I'm trying to not let it bother me but it does slightly. But for now I'm going to concentrate on the happy things! 
This is all for now. :)

Dec. 6th, 2012

dear lj chandler

(no subject)

2.5lb more has come off! Woo. 

:) 

That's 2 stone, 5lb now. :D

Sep. 9th, 2012

sad flack

(no subject)

Going to the gene clinic tomorrow. I'm very nervous. Only going for a chat and to have my bloods taken, but I'm still nervous. Will have to wait 4 weeks for my results... gonna be a pretty crappy 4 weeks wait!
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Sep. 8th, 2012

smile becks

Weight loss update.

Weight lost so far... 11lbs in 4 weeks.

:)

Aug. 13th, 2012

dear lj chandler

(no subject)

I believe everyone comes in to your life to teach you something, or to help you become the person you are meant to be.

Some people come in, stay for a while, and then leave once you've learnt the thing/things you need them for.

Some people come in, stay for a longer time, because they have more to teach you or because their thing takes longer to engulf you.

Some people come in to your life, teach you something, leave, then come back.

Some people come in and stay forever because they are forever growing and forever changing along with you. They stay because they want to, not because they are forced to.

I am lucky enough to have some people in my life who are from all of these categories. Everyone is lucky to have people around them; be it your family, your friends, your colleagues, people you meet one day and then never see again.

We all need people. As much as I may say that I am fine being by myself a lot of the time, I do need people. I need human interaction and I think it's important that everyone remembers that. It's what keeps us human, it's what keeps us ticking. Humans are sociable people. Even if you socialise for 5 minutes in a day, that's what really keeps you ticking.

So next time you're out and about, or next time you're lying in bed thinking... think of the people who come and go, think of the people who stayed for a while, think of the people who came back and think of the people who will never leave. Be thankful for them. Without them you would never be the person you are today. You'd never know the things you know now. Humans are forever growing, learning, changing and adapting. Through pain, sorrow, loss, happiness, excitement, nervousness. Emotion is how we grow, learn and adapt.
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Jun. 20th, 2012

dear lj chandler

(no subject)


So Cheryl Cole has an amazing song on her album.
"Girl In The Mirror" 

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