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Stolen, apparently. [Jun. 28th, 2009|09:45 pm]
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 012 THINGS I WISH I COULD SAY TO TEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT NOW.


001 i miss you, come home
002 i wish you weren't such a bitch to me sometimes, i miss our banter
003 i don't think you know that i like you, but that's ok, it's kinda easier that way
004 stop messing with my head, please
005 i don't want to just be a 'weekend friend', stop just texting me at weekends
006 i'd really love to see you a bit more
007 i hope i never lose you from my life, you're amazing
008 you're not who you used to be, and i'm not that sad about it
009 stop making me feel so tiny about myself, please
010 thanks for having confidence in me, even when i doubt myself
011 i'm fed up of trying to talk to you, when you don't talk back, get the fuck out, or get the fuck in
012 i still miss you but that time in my life is over, i'm sorry


009 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF.


001 i hate pretty much everything about my body
002 i only like my boobs
003 i don't see the point going out spending shit loads on a drunken night out
004 i hate being drunk
005 i really want to be impulsive but fear holds me back
006 i think i have a phobia of being late
007 i prefer showers over baths
008 i've always bitten my nails and i think i always will
009 i aspire to be miss honey, from matilda


008 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART.


001 make me laugh
002 have chandler bing's sense of humour
003 want to spend time with me, sincerely, don't pretend to
004 don't be cocky, because it's not sexy
005 be intelligent
006 make me want to spend time with you
007 care, but don't be overly nice
008 know when to compliment me


007 THINGS THAT CROSS MY MIND A LOT.


001 my job
002 my family
003 money
004 my weight
005 friends 
006 who can i text now?
007 how much i'm disappointing someone or other


006 I DO BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP.


001 close my curtains
002 change my pillows around
003 put friends on
004 text
005 lie on my stomach
006 laugh at friends 


005 PEOPLE WHO MEAN A LOT.


001 my mam
002 my dad
003 my brother
004 my family
005 my friends


004 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW.


001 glasses
002 pyjamas
003 bracelet
004 slippers

003 SONGS I LISTEN TO OFTEN.


001 michael jackson - PYT
002 the saturdays - issues
003 westlife - flying without wings


002 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE.


001 learn to drive
002 visit new york


001 CONFESSION.


001 i have very little confidence in my own abilities
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(no subject) [May. 16th, 2009|12:03 am]
[Current Mood | calm]
[Current Music |CSI]

Gilles and Cheryl to win DWTS.
Danny, Adam, Mac and Hawkes unscathed in CSI:NY.
No-one to die in Criminal Minds.
I want Grissom to come back to CSI Vegas.

That's all I think atm.

OMNOMNOM CHRIS PINE.
OM SHEMAR MOORE, YOU FIIIIIINE.
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Writer's Block: Looking Back [Apr. 14th, 2009|01:47 pm]
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[Current Music |Sting + Craig David - Rise and Fall]

LiveJournal is turning 10 and we're feeling nostalgic. What was your first LJ post about?


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I'm sure my first entry was a big rabble of poems and teenage angst.
And I'm still full of teenage angst now,and I'm not a teenager.

According to LJ I haven't updated in 7 weeks, this depresses me! Nothing much has been happening in my life tbh.

We had my dad's 50th, Paul is home, it was my dad's birthday present, I of course had no idea so I cried my eyes out when I saw him. Now he's just starting to annoy me, he's my brother it's what is meant to happen. I don't want him to go back to Sweden but he is here for another week so I will TRY and be nice to him. We spent the day of my dad's birthday in Madison's drinking cocktails and eating yummy food. Oh and the bar girl was nommy and she had a lovely Irish accent. Then I got a phone call saying the people at my placement were going for drinks so, naturally, I went for drinks with them. Then I went home, got changed and went back out with the parents and the brother and his mrs for more drinks. I only spent about 20 quid that WHOLE day too. I enjoy this fact a lot.
Then on Saturday we had a partay/get together at the club for my dad and there was about 20 of us turned up. Me, my mam, my dad (obv), Paul, Eevee, John (my brother's best friend), my auntie Carole, my auntie Mandy, Lindsay and Gary (I think), Daniel, my auntie Jan, Shelly, my auntie Tracey and Blade, Jimmy, Linda, Sheila and Andy. It was a lovely bunch, we all had a proper laugh. I went out with 40 quid and came home with 40 quid, and I was slightly drunk. That night was a good night.

I am rediscovering songs that I had long forgotten about. Craig David + Sting - Rise and Fall, Billy Elliott - Electricity. I enjoy when this happens. I don't enjoy when you overplay a song and then you can't stand listening to it. That is not good times.

I think this is all I can be bothered to type. I will be back soon, with an ACTUAL update. :)

p.s. remind me to talk about Robin Wood.
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Thinkthink... [Feb. 18th, 2009|10:50 am]
[Current Location |Sittingroom]
[Current Mood | blah]

I have SUCH a crush on Elina from ANTM and Ross Kemp atm.
I wish I had something to update you on, I don't.
I'm working too much, not playing hard enough, my parents are on holiday and I have no-one to keep me company. I realised the other day I don't have anyone that I can just text and say 'wanna come over to mine?' and they'll just show up, this makes me vereh sad. :(
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Birthday surprises. [Jan. 16th, 2009|07:18 pm]
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[Current Mood | bouncy]
[Current Music |The Script]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEEEEEEEE. I wouldn't usually say that to myself but I'm in a jolly mood so it's allowed.

I've quite enjoyed my 20th birthday, it's been successful! I wasn't much looking forward to it but it's been lovely. When I woke up this morning I had lots of lovely texts and throughout the day I got some equally nice ones. I walked to my placement this morning, I really quite enjoy the walk, it's nice and peaceful at 8 o'clock in the morning walking along to the school. I was there all day today and it was lovely, everyone was saying 'happy birthday' left right at centre, and it's just been an all over nice day at placement. I never have a bad day really. Then I went to pick up my sexy specs. I love them, they're so pretty. I look completely different. Think Gok Wan's glasses mixed with the glasses Penelope Garcia wears in Criminal Minds. Sexysexy. I love them. I walked down past the street I used to live in, and it's just a completely different place, it seems so horrid and downtrodden, the place I live now is so much happier :D. Then I got home and opened my cards to find even more moneys. Goodtimes. Last night I got a cow dressing gown, cow pyjamas and some chocolate from everyone from work - I love them all lots <3.

The absolute highlight of my day happened about 10 minutes ago and I'm still recovering.
There was a knock at the door.
I went to the top of the stairs, cause I'm nebby like that. My mam answered it and I heard her say ''Who are you?''
I walked down the stairs and I heard ''I'm Matthew, I used to get the bus with Stephanie when we went to Emmanuel"
By this time I realise who it is, and I squee inside, like an overexcited teenager. (Back story. Matthew is a boy who I used to get the private bus to school with. He was in the year below me, he's intelligent, funny and attractive. I had a massive crush on him for about 3 and a half year, but then I left school and we never really saw each other. Lately we've started talking a bit more and we text every other day or something!)
So I walk down the stairs looking like an utter tramp (I have my grey, ugly, comfy hoodie on, red pyjama pants on that have a hole in and red and white spotty socks on, sexy I know!) and hug him, and he hugs me back, like a hug that's meant.
We go in the dining room, he says sorry to intrude but he was in the neighbourhood (which is a valid point because we live quite close to each other) and he takes a bottle of wine out of his bag for me, for my birthday.
I hug him again, grinning like a mad man.
He says we should meet up sometime, so 2 weeks today it is.

I am so happy. He's made my birthday 100000000000000000000x better.
Little things like that just make me so happy.

:D

p.s. The bouncy icon is awesome!!
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Quizzle. [Jan. 14th, 2009|05:06 pm]
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[Current Mood | calm]
[Current Music |Savin Me - Nickleback]

So, what'​s your name?​
Stephanie

What'​s the 6th text on your phone​?​
'Haha never mind eh :)'

Do you have a favor​ite TV comme​cial?​
I like that advert for the cars where the buildings look like they're smiling.

Do you have a littl​e siste​r?​
Nope, I am the little sister.

Tell me a fact about​ the last perso​n that texte​d you:​?​?​
She's my cousin.

What is your favor​ite salad​ dress​ing?​
I don't like salad dressing?

Do you like Conve​rse?​
They're alrite, I'm more of a Vans girl.

When'​s the last time you had an Oreo?​
A long time ago?

Do you have a frien​d named​ Ashle​y?​
Not a friend but I know someone called Ashley

Do you like Chris​ Brown​?​
Yeah

Want somet​hing you can'​t have?​
Always

Do you have a secre​t that you'​ve never​ told ANYON​E?​
Ohhh yes

What woke you up this morni​ng?​
My dad sweeping the stairs

How many times​ is A in your full name?​
2

Whats​ the weath​er like outsi​de?​
Its warmish and cloudy.

Are you talle​r than 5'​6"​?​
I am not.

Who was your last misse​d call?​
Becca

Why did you last cry?
I was watching highlights from the Golden Globes when Heath won an award :(

Do you have curly​ hair?​
Naturally wavy, oui.

Is there​ stuff​ from your past that you miss?​
Yeah

What'​s the last thing​ that made you feel good?​
That Buffer Bear liked my application and I'm now supply staff!

How would​ you feel if your last ex fell in love with someo​ne else?​
I dunno, we're friends. There is no hard feelings, so I'd be pleased for them.

If you could​ move somew​here else,​ would​ you?
America, Canada or Australia

Inter​ested​ in anyon​e at the momen​t?​
Erm, idk?

Are you in a good mood right​ now?
I'm ok :)

What made you sad today​?​
Nothing particularly, I didn't want to get up this morning tho!

Do you like to make the first​ move?​
I can be quite forward, yes, but I don't like to.

Do you hate it when peopl​e smoke​ aroun​d you?
Not specially

Do you like to take walks​?​
Sometimes, if it's nice out.

Are you tryin​g to avoid​ likin​g someb​ody at the momen​t?​
No?

Do you want kids?​
In the future yeah

Whats​ somet​hing you reall​y want right​ now?
Bed?

Who was the last perso​n you took a pictu​re with?​
Becca :)

Do you have someo​ne you can be your compl​ete self aroun​d?​
Yeah

Looki​ng back in time did you ever waste​ your time on a certa​in boy or girl?​
Yes, I don't regret it.

Have you ever falle​n in love with someo​ne you didn'​t expec​t?​
Yeah

What are you liste​ning to?
No Air - Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown
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(no subject) [Dec. 26th, 2008|08:14 pm]
[Current Location |Bedbedbedbedbed]
[Current Mood | blah]
[Current Music |Friends season 1]

I KNEW I was right to think it wasn't going to happen. I KNEW it. Why did I let myself fall for it again? Badtimes.

Apart from that Christmas was awesome :)))) I got some awesome presents, but I entirely missed my brother! Here is the schtum I got...

Friends - the one with all 10 series box set.
Step Up 2
PS I Love You
Juno
Sex and the City movie
The Hills season 1 and 2
Jimmy Carr in concert DVD
Cow alarm clock (that actually moos!)
Socks, socks, socks
Chocolate
Perfume
Money
Westlife book
James Patterson - Cross Country
QI book of quotations
David Beckham calendar
Diary
Smellies
High school musical slippers
Teddy cow <3
Teddy giraffe
Bag
Take That - Circus
Rihanna - Good Girl Gone Bad (reloaded edition)
Clothes


YAY FOR AN ALARM CLOCK THAT MOOS. It makes me really happy.

I am slowly giving up on women. Why? Because they're all silly.
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One day when I came home at lunchtime... [Dec. 1st, 2008|04:07 pm]
[Current Mood | content]
[Current Music |Busted - Year 3000]


1. Criminal Minds
2. Top Gear
3. The Hills
4. CSI
5. CSI:NY
6. Friends

Who is your favorite character from #2?
Jezza is awesome.

Who is your least favorite character from #4?
Sara, or Ecklie?

What would a crossover between #1 and #5 include?
OMG IT WOULD BE MINTTTTTTTTTTTT. It'd be some kind of murder that the CSIs needed profiling help from. Oh I would LOVE that.

Who is your favourite ship from #6?
Wtf? What's a ship, in this context?

If you were to set one person from #3 and one person from #6 on a blind date, who would they be?
Lauren and Chandler?

If you could meet one person from #4 and spend the day with him/her, who would it be and what would you do?
Grissom, or Lady Heather <33
If it were Grissom I would make him teach me lots of CSI type things. If it were Lady Heather I'd just like to hear her talk?

If you could change one thing about #2's plotline, what would you change?
Lol, it's a factual programme, therefore no plot

Explain a relationship between two people (not necessarily romantic) from show #5 and why you like the relationship between them.
Stella and Mac are awesome together. They're like 2 of the best friends. They know how the other works best and know when to just drop it. And there is a bit of a spark there but not romantic. They know how to press each other's buttons!

If the lead title characters (first names in the credits) from #1 and #3 were both drowning, and you could only save one, who would it be?
I don't know who the first person on the credits is on Criminal Minds, because as far as I'm aware it changes.

If you could change the title characters' order in the credits for #4, what order would you choose?
I don't know :(

If you were able to add a new character, any kind of character you wanted, to the storyline of #6, what would the character be like, and what would their role be?
Oh I love everything about 6.

What happens in your favorite episode of show #2?
Hahahaha they made boats out of cars <3

If you could kill off one of the characters in #1, who would it be and how would you do it?
Oh god don't make me!

If you got the chance to visit the set for either show #3 or show #5, which would you choose?
OMG. DON'T MAKE ME PICKKKK.

If you could date anyone from any of these shows, which show and which person would it be?
It would clearly be Shemar Moore from Criminal Minds
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That's life... [Oct. 27th, 2008|09:58 pm]
[Current Mood | crappy]


PUKE.
I could have BEEN her.

Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm sick of being single.
Really sick.
Of being lonely. And alone. And everyone around me being all coupled up and loved up. And EUGH. I'm fed up. And whiney.
I haaaaaaaaaate being jealous.
I hate wanting things I can never have.
I hate the fact I still, secretly, like you.
Gah, I hate it all.
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And you're a TOOL so, so what? [Oct. 8th, 2008|02:48 pm]
[Current Mood | pissed off]
[Current Music |So What?]


You're an absolute TOOL. I don't know what I ever saw in you.
You're such an arse. Fuck off.
I don't care if you read this. You're the one ignoring me, you're the one being a shit head, not me.
Fool me once? Shame on you. Fool me twice? Shame on me.
You're not getting to fool me a 3rd time.
I can't be BOTHERED.
I can do without another arsehole thanks.

Come back when you're a grown up.
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J'ARRIVE!! [Oct. 5th, 2008|02:23 pm]
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[Current Location |Bedroom]
[Current Mood | cold]
[Current Music |Precious Love - James Morrison]


Hah, yes I arrive back home.

I'm currently sitting in my pissing freezing bedroom, eating Maoams (<3) and listening to some new James Morrison songs, life jsut doesn't get any better than this. Apart from the last week, which was amaaaazing. I had the best holiday evarrrr. It was nice to get away and not have to THINK or DO anything for a week. My mam, Sheila and I went to Lloret de Mar in Spain and it was lovely... the hotel was a bit shabby but never mind, it was a place to put down my head and a place to get drunk... which I did, just once though. I got REALLY drunk the first night, puked a few times and never drank much after that for the rest of my holiday. But we did meet some VEREHHH gorgeous menfolk out there, yes they were English, Scousers... some stag called Kev and his friends, one of whom was VERY hot (Garry the copper... SWOON) and one of whom fancied me, he wasn't bad but bless him he was a bit geeky. We also did the Medieval Night and it was AWESOME... I was seriously sceptical about it but it was soooooo good. Our knight was the red knight and he won and he kissed me on the hand and he acknowledged that we were his biggest fans <3 bless, I love being a bit naiive sometimes! YUMYUMYUM. We met a funny Welsh man that night, he was very funny. I don't remember his jokes but I remember him being VERY funny! Goodtimes. What else happened? I've been up since 2:45am this morning so my memory and EVERYTHING else is a bit slow on me today, but I can't sleep during the day HOW VERY LAME.

So that's my holiday, I'm sure I'll come up with lots of funny memories throughout! OH YES... this Scottish man was shouting something random and his false teeth came out and there were some excessively ugly people dancing like absolute morons.... it gives me hope that there's someone out there for me. :)

However I am not pleased to hear I only have 7 hours at work this week. Maybe I shouldn't complain to be fair but it's not what I wanted to hear, I am muchos considering a new job but I just don't have the qualifications needed to do the job I want to do and no-one else wants me because they're all looking for Xmas people and I don't want a temporary job... NEVER MIND.

SOME GOOD NEWS EVERYONE... I came home today and remembered that there was a new episode of Criminal Minds, CSI:NY and The Hills for me to watch... and I've managed to watch them all :D I LOVELOVE LC and I love Criminal Minds more than life atm... it's just so RANT WORTHY but in a good way. Reid is soooo clever, Morgan is sooo gorgeous, JJ is so loveable, Hotch is just amazing and Rossi is REALLY growing on me. OOOH I'm excited for the new series of CSI Vegas because I'm excited to see what they do about the Grissom thing, and with Lawrence Fishburne coming in, I think he'll be awesome, I loved him in whatsitcalled The Matrix. I think he'll bring a new dimension to everything BUT I don't know. Aslong as I still see lots of Nick and Brass it's all good. OH NO I FORGOT WARRICK WAS DEAD/DYING. Will someone tell me when it starts in America so I can stream it> PLZZZZ.

Oh yeah, my brother moved. It hasn't hit me yet, it's just like he's gone and he'll come back eventually. I haven't moved into his bedroom yet, I'm not ready to let go of him just yet... yesyes I'm weird I know, but he's my big brother and my best friend, he's a while away now so it's not just so easy, LOL. But yeah I'm ok with it all, we had an AWESOME night out and Shane and I are going to go out sometime... I'm sure :)

I'm going to see if I can watch something else exciting :)

Lovelove x
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You've got such lovely ears... [Sep. 5th, 2008|03:13 pm]
[Current Mood | blank]

Haha the title of this has nothing to do with anything really, I'm watching Whose Line is it Anyway? and they're going One Headed Broadway Star singing about lovely earlobes. Classic.

So what's new?

- We're dog-sitting and it's not the worst experience of my life, but I couldn't own a dog, they're so needy and gannet-like, I don't like when they fuss over you while you're eating, it's not pleasant. Eugh. She's harmless though, and she's gorgeous, she just sits at the top of the stairs and waits for my mam or dad to come home from work. Bless. But I can't wait for her to go home, it'll be nice to just be and not have to worry about getting home to let the dog out.

- My brother is moving to Sweden in *thinks* 13 days... scaaaaaary. It's going to be INSANE without him here but I'm happy for him, I respect him too much and he knows he's doing it for him and no-one else. He misses his girlfriend a lot and yes Sweden is a LONG LONG way away but I can always go and visit him if I want to. That makes me essentially an only child at home, it's going to be mad, me and my brother have never spent more than like 3 weeks apart from each other... I don't think I'll notice he's gone straight away, he's just going to be not present and then it'll hit me massssssive style and I'll probably cry my eyes out, lol.

- I start college in 2 weeks. I'M SCARED. SO SCARED.

I can't be arsed to finish this.
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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2008|07:50 pm]
[Current Mood | cranky]
[Current Music |Disturbiaaaaaaaaaaaaa]

I got tagged by Kylie I do believe.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag five people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. What do you usually wear to bed, PJs or boxer shorts?
I wear pyjamas usually. But if it's hot I sleep nekkid.

2. What is the most interesting/bizarre/amusing dream you have ever had?
I was in New York with Lauren Conrad (<3) and she asked me to marry her.

3. What's your favourite colour of ink to write with?
Black ftw

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
New York or Sydney plz

5. Who is your girl crush?
In real life that would indeed be telling.
BUT my celebfancy is Lauren Conrad <33

6. How do you like your toast?
Hardly cooked with marmite or jam plz

7. Ever cheated on someone?
Honestly, yes.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
I just whinge. And whinge. And get over it.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
MY job, the weather, not winning more medals in the olympics, my weight, women, men and the lack of attention.

10. How would you like to die?
In my sleep

11. What do you wish you could eat right now?
Mmmmmmmmmm i dunno, something yum.

12. What are your guilty pleasure shows?
Model type programmes

13. What is one of your biggest pet peeves?
Cockiness

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She's awesome, I want her to come to Newcastle so I can show her around :)))

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
Rihanna - Disturbia

16. What’s your favourite item of clothing?
Ooooh my grey jeans that I don't wear often enough because I'm too short.

17. How do you see yourself?
I'm rally lame. I have like zero self confidence, I like to think I'm funny though.

18. What's the first thing you notice in people?
Shoes lol

19. Would you bungee jump from the Empire State Building for $10,000,000?
Yes. Hell I'd jump off something MASSIF for 10 million

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender sex?
Tom, I think.


I tag Bex, Emma, Leigh, Danielle and Wenna
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Trust the voice within... [Jul. 20th, 2008|10:29 pm]
[Current Mood | confused]
[Current Music |The Voice Within - Christina Aguilera]

I just kind of want to make amends for everything. And I don't know how to without people thinking I'm suicidal or think I'm being a dick. I want to start a new chapter in my life where I'm doing things for me... not my boss, not my mam, not my brother, not for the government or whichever fucker wants me to do something for them. I want to do things that make me happy, I want to be the person I want to be... not the person other people want me to be. EVERYONE wants me to be someone else... less of a headfuck, more outgoing, more myself, more professional, more open to new ideas, more open to new people, more open to change... no that's NOT me and I'm not going to pretend to be someone I'm not just to please you for a millisecond while the world turns around you and your stupid ideas.

Like, yes this is petty but I don't care it's driving me mad. At work I've been told I'm not allowed to wear crop pants because they don't look 'professional', and I have to wear a blouse because I don't 'look like a manager if I have a t-shirt on'. When I went into work the other day with long black pants, black shoes, and a blouse on I didn't feel like me. It's like work is sucking the fun out of me and I can't do it anymore. I need to be in a job I want to be in, not a job I'm only in because I know it's what I'm good at. A year ago I was asked if I was going to go back to college or if I wanted to stay at Priceless and go up the ranks (so to speak) and I said I'd love to stay at Priceless to see where I could end up, but now a year later I can't do it. I need to be able to flex my wings and do what I want to. I need to do something that my heart is 100% in, and it's not shoes anymore. There's only a few things keeping me at my job A) my fear of change B) some of the people I work with... but that really is. I've lost all my passion for my job. It doesn't matter how much I do I just don't feel like it's good enough anymore. Is that because it isn't good enough anymore or because I'm so used to being the best and I'm not the best anymore. I want to feel like I'm needed and that my work is appeciated, but I just don't think I am anymore. That's such a personality flaw I know, but constant reassuance is one of the one things that keeps me positive.

There's so much I want to say but I just don't know how to.
I want to be a better friend.
I want to be thinner.
I want to be in a childcae job where I have all of the passion and the creativity to inspire other young people like my teachers did me.
I want to be the best daughter I can be.
I want to be funnier.
I want to be someone look up to.
I want to be happy with me.
I want someone to want to be happy with me.
I want people to be proud of me.
I want to be remembeed for doing a good job, not for nagging and getting on peoples nerves and being bad at my job.
I want to change lives. But I don't think I will.

I'm sick of being everyone's second best. I don't even know who I'm referring to when I say that I just feel like people pick me because they can't get the 'better model'. I don't know I'm just average, I like being average, I like going under the radar but I want things I'm never going to have, human nature yes. Life is such a headfuckery that I just don't know anymore.

I wish I had a Criminal Minds DVD boxset just to sink my teeth into.

I don't know anymore.
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(no subject) [Jul. 13th, 2008|08:46 pm]
[Current Mood | crushed]

How many people do you know with your name?
A few

What are all of your plans for today and tonight?
Erm, I'm waiting for my supper, then bathtimes then sleepytime. I have an early morning.

How old do you think you will be when you have kids?
Honestly? I have no idea

Would you rather watch football or baseball?
Football, Baseball always looks really boring. It's a proper American thing too.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
Erm I don't know, it depends

What's something you really want right now, be honest!
Affection

Do you plan out your day before it begins?
Sometimes, I like plans, I hate when they change.

What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
Who the FUCK is texting me?

How's your heart lately?
Dead?

Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
YES! I hope I'm not the only one.

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
I don't know, probably when I went out with Gemma.

Did someone make you mad today?
Nah not really

What are you doing tomorrow?
Working, and Darts maybe.

When was the last time you had Starbucks?
I don't remember. I craved one all last week but I stopped myself

Where were you at 2:00 this morning?
Probably lying in bed texting Bexi.

Ever kissed someone who smokes?
Yes

Do you wear glasses?
Yes, I don't think they're sexy though :( I want some sexy specs

Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now?
Primark

When is your birthday?
January 16th

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Watching Criminal Minds

Last place you took a plane to?
Errrrm Barcelooona

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
Stephen is lovely. I've known him YEARS now

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Yes

Are you a jealous person?
I'm awfully jealous sometimes

Are you tired right now?
Not specially

Do you chew on your straws?
Yes, always

What's your favorite room in your house?
My bedroom

Last inbox message from?
Something from a place I wanted to volunteer with

Is your hair curly?
Nope

Who was at your house last?
My aunties

Are you able to climb a chain link fence?
I haven't tried

Who's car were you in last?
Darren's

Last movie you went to see?
At the pictures? PS I Love You

Are you ashamed of your past?
Nope

Where does your grandma live?
I don't have obe =[

Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Fuck no

Are you texting right now?
Nope

Do you trust people?
Yes

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Once or twice

Have you ever played a Wii?
Nope :(

What woke you up this morning?
I naturally woke up

When you shut off your alarm clock, do you tend to fall back asleep?
Oh yes

Where are your siblings right now?
At his friend's house

Do you wear a name tag at work?
Nope :)

Do you have any tattoos?
Yes

Last place you ordered food from?
The fish shop

What high school did/do you attend?
Emmanuel College

What are you excited for?
Idk?

What did you do last night?
I babysat Eve

Last song you sang?
Save Me From Myself - Christina Aguilera

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
I like my eyes

What color are your eyes?
Bluey green

Whats the longest you have talked on the phone to someone?
A few hours

How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now?
I have a one dollar bill in my purse :)

Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more?
Nope

Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
I don't know how to drive

Anything hurt on your body right now?
Kind of

When was the last time you laughed?
Today

Have you ever been stalked?
God I hope not

What was the last thing you cried about?
Love Actually last night

What are you drinking?
Diet Coke

What do you wear to bed?
Pyjamas

Is your shirt new?
Nope

Do you read often?
I do

The last person you fought with?
My brother maybe

Name something that's on your mind right now?
Christina Aguilera

When was the last time you sang out loud?
About 3 mins ago

Who do you really want to see right now?
David Beckham

What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Neither

Are you pregnant?
Apparently I look it

Do you swear a lot?
Yes

Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Wifey

What are you currently listening to?
Nothing

Have the cops ever came to your house?
Yes when some random kid thought it would be smart to come in our back door.

Who's your last missed call?
Erm... Bexi

Where do you want to go?
Anywhere right now

Do you always wear your seat belt?
Not ALWAYS

What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Lol, happy time.

Who did you last shoot a dirty look at?
I don't often

What kind of dog do you have?
I do not have a dog

Do you drink beer?
I do

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
Primark

What is something you need to go shopping for?
Nothing

Do you have any tan lines?
Nope

Do you remember the name of your primary school teacher?
I remember them all :D

When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?
Sometimes, cause it's fun.

Has anyone ever given you roses?
Nope :(

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
Probably, my fat would last enough time for someone to find me

Honestly, what color is your underwear?
Red with white spots

Have you done something bad today?
Nope?

What was the last thing you ate?
Kebab. I regret it now.

When was the last time you really cried your heart out?
A while ago

When was the last time you hugged someone and who was it?
It was probably my mam, sometime earlier today

Are you normally a happy person?
Not specially

Do you own any kind of yellow clothing?
Yes

How many piercings do you have?
Ears

Any siblings?
One big brother

Are you single?
Yup

What makes your bedroom unique?
David Beckham in a lesbians bedroom.

What's your favorite season of the year?
SUMMERRR

Do you like cheese?
Sometimes

What is your current mood?
I really am not very happy :(

The "If you HAD to" section:

If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you want it?
I don't know

If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
Black, again

If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get?
I wouldn't

If you HAD to go on a reality tv show, what one would you go on?
The Hills <33333333

The "WOULD YOU?" section:

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
Love one person

Would you move anywhere else if you could?
Nope

If you were given the chance to go to South Africa, would you go?
Most definately

If you were given 10 million dollars to keep, what would you do with it?
A lot

The "CURRENT YEAR" section:

Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of the year?
I dunno

Anything exciting happen this year?
Not specially

Have you been involved with the police this year?
Nope

Are your best friends still your best friends?
Yes

Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
No.

Been kicked out of a public place this year?
No

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Cause this is your song... [Jul. 11th, 2008|05:41 pm]
[Current Mood | disappointed]
[Current Music |This Is Your Song]

I stole this from my new Irish friend, even though I wasn't tagged I haven't posted in a while but I thought I'd do it anyway, I'm bored, shoot me.


1. How has LJ changed your life?
I don't think LJ is a life changing thing but it has certainly helped me rant away without having to get too many people involved. Maybe it's not such a good thing, maybe it is. I know that people can read my LJ but that's their choice I'm not forcing them to listen to me whinge.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
It depends. But usually my routine is shut my curtains, put on my pyjamas, put my hair down then tie it back up (I'm not sure why), put the TV on, get into bed, remember I don't have a remote, get out of bed press play, turn off my light and text one of my besties and fall asleep. SOMETIMES I remember to turn the TV off lol

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
I have NO idea. I know I want all my family there though. My family are absolutely my life.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
I don't know, I don't think I've travelled enough to have a city of my dreams. I do however want to travel to Sydney, Cape Town, Dublin, New York, Miami, Vegas, LA, Paris, Venice, Rome. 
 
5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
A bit of both depending who I'm with and what kind of day I'm having. Around people I don't know I can be a bit quiet but around the people I know and love I really can't shut up, unless told to. I'm less of an open book than I used to be though, I don't talk about my feelings half as much as I used to. I just don't see the need.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by somebody. I don't know why. Just yes.

7. Do you trust easily?
Erm, no, yes, maybe, I don't know. If it's a person I THINK I can trust then I have no problem trusting them, but if you break my trust then I don't often trust again.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Whinge

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
My job, seriously.

10. What is your best quality?
I try and be the best friend I can be.

11. Is being tagged fun?
I don't often get tagged :(

12. How do you see yourself?
I think I'm fat, well I KNOW I'm fat. I think I'm just average in everything else though. I'm not ugly, I'm not gorgeous, I'm just normal. You wouldn't look twice at me, I know that much. I'm ok being average though, it means I don't stand out.

13. Who has most influenced your life?
I really don't know.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Well, since I wasn't tagged I'll talk about the person I stole this from... she's creative, lovely and Irish, qualifying her as awesome. And she has the best tattoo ever!

16. What are your top five albums?
  • Westlife - Unbreakable
  • Christina Aguilera - Stripped
  • Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
  • Michael Buble - Call Me Irresponsible
  • Jamie Cullum - Twentysomething


16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
I want 2, or 3. But it really depends what happens with my life.

17. What's better to give or to receive?
Giving. It just gives you that buzz.

18. If you could make a guest appearance on your favorite television show, what part would you want?
I really would LOVE to be any sort of extra on any of the series of CSI. But ideally I'd be some kind of detective.
Or I'd be a Special Agent in Criminal Minds.

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
Probably. Idk.

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender?
Tom

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I'm fucked off. Kay? [Jun. 10th, 2008|07:45 pm]
[Current Mood | angry]
[Current Music |Westlife]

I've had the worst day ever today. I just feel crapcrapcrap, no word of a lie. Sometimes I say it and I just feel a bit shitty but today I feel crap to no avail. Seriously nearing rock bottom. Work is SHIT. I'm seriously not enjoying it at the minute. It doesn't matter WHAT I do it's never enough. And I give up a hell of a lot to go to work. I'm now not able to go to London in July (which tbf London scares me so that part of it isn't so bad) because I have to work, I don't mind because I get more money but it would have been nice, whatever, it's not like I can't do it some other time. There was a MASSIF promotion on at work today, EVERYTHING REDUCED. Yes people you herd it EVERYTHING... EVERY SINGLE PAIR OF SHOES, TRAINERS, WELLIES, BOOTS, INSOLES, HEEL GRIPS, BAGS FOR LIFE, LACES, UMBRELLAS. Everything. So I had to run around like a fucking headless chicken to get this on, if it's not good enough in the morning I am seriously going to reconsider staying there and finding a new job. FFS I'M NOT PERFECT. NO FUCKER IS.

Oh and something else to just MAKE MY DAY. Buffer Bear (the best nursery in Newcastle) is looking for a Nursery Nurse... oh but wait you have to be NVQ Level 3 in child care trained. WHICH I'M NOT. I HAVE ALL THE EXPERIENCE BUT NO QUALIFICATION. WHY THE FUCK DID I WASTE 2 YEARS DOING A LEVELS WHICH CAN'T EVEN GET ME THE JOB I WANT. FFS. It's the most perfect job for me ever, but I can't even apply because I'm not qualified. I wasted 2 years doing A Levels that I didn't even enjoy and gave up on in the end and got nothing from it. FFS I'm such a failure.

I miss my parents. Call me lame but I am. I just can't wait for them to come back on Friday so I can rant and rave at my mam about how shit I am at everything. Because well I am. Stupid me. Oh and I'm ok with being a bit of a sado, just so you know. Don't fucking talk about my behind my back. I don't mind going to the club on a Monday to play darts, and then not go out during the week. I'd rather waste my money some other way. I don't want to go out waste £40 on a night out and regret it the next day... so I'm not going to change anytime soon. Kay?

I just wish I was thin, blonde, tall, pretty, lived in Los Angeles and went to Fashion School. I wish I were Lauren Conrad, she's awesome. Or Victoria Beckham, because regardless of how thin she is, yes she's more beautiful when she's pregnant, she's the epitome of glowing when you're pregnant, she's gorgeous. I just don't want to be 'the fat one' anymore. I've tried losing weight IT DOESN'T WORK. AND I'M SICK. How much IS a gastric bypass? Anyone?

BIG BROTHER? FUCK OFF.
NO CSI? FUCK OFF.
I did get to see The Hills though, it makes me happy. 

Boyzone in a week. THANKYOU LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORD. I hope I'm not at work that day. That would be balls.
I'm going now. To rant at someone. I hope it's not you!
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(no subject) [May. 14th, 2008|07:35 pm]
[Current Mood | angry]

i am so peeved.
mtv you SUCK
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I WANT TO WATCH THE HILLS SEASON FINALE ONLINE...

OH NO YOURE A STUPID ENGLISH PERSON YOU MAY NOT.



FUCKERS
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Buenos noches amigos! [Apr. 26th, 2008|12:56 am]
[Current Location |Bedtimes]
[Current Mood | cranky]
[Current Music |Pink]

I'm really tired, like really really tired but I can't sleep, that's one of the worst feelings ever. It's like being tortured and knowing you can get out of it but your body not letting you. Hmmm... I'm not hardcore anymore, it's most annoying. I used to be able to stay up til like 3 without being tired, and now it gets to like 11 and I'm tired. God I really am the strangest 19 year old ever. Even my mam and dad say so.

So yeah, what's happened since I last updated? Quite a lot really. 

Work has been MADMADMAD. I went in on Wednesday for my first full day back and it was like hell. Me and Darren were just planning on moving the men's section around but OH NO we ended up moving around half of the ladies shoes and ALL of the men's. In the end it was just me moving the shoes because Daz still isn't up to full health and well, I'd rather help him out than make him worse. I do love our Dazman, he's funny, even if he does beat me up. Haha bless him. And Thursday was pretty damn boring, yknow same old same old. But OH NO TODAY... it was eventful to say the least! Started out all good, went to work, got there the same time as Garry (the manager of the shop) and did the morning things... then about 10am there was a MASSIF (and I'm not lying) powercut. The WHOLE of Northumberland Street lost it's power. Literally all of Northumberland Street. So we had to be like 'Okay can you all leave the shop please? Leave your purchases where they are and we'll deal with them'. I had to go downstairs to get dockets so that when people came back in, they could buy things and then they'd go through the till later. Eeeeh it was mad. Working in the dark, everyone was just like WTF DO WE DO. It was my first powercut at work. I was dumbfounded. Then when the power came back on, after about an hour or so, the tills were still broke... luckily our main till started working immediately so we just had to have one person serving... lucky me was opted for this job because I'm the best.

And Rich the trainer man, because we're all doing NVQs for doing our job (WOOT) came in and was observing me and he said I was the best he'd ever seen. Well yes, I am. He called me a legend and then I overheard him talking to Garry and Garry said I was an asset to the company. Oh today is full of win.

Is this all I hear you ask? Probably. All that ever happens in my life is work.

OH I LIE I LIE I LIE.
I have things to add to my list of things to do.
17th May - Auntie Maureen's 50th.
2nd/3rd August - Blackpool with my girl cousins. I can't wait, would you like some rock oh dear reader? :D

Eeeeh, it's almost June. Or not, but you know. I can't wait. I'm so nervous, but excited, and happy, and apprehensive, and hopeful and I so don't want to make a bad impression. What if I'm a bitch? What if I'm really loud? What if I'm not what she expects? What if she meets me and hates me? What if I act like a twat and she's like 'WTF WHO ARE YOU YR NT WHO I THOUGHT YOU WERE THANKS'? Hmmmm... I'm thinking about this too much.

I think it's time for bed now. G'night x

p.s.... LOL AT CRANKY.
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Holidays and such like... [Apr. 22nd, 2008|04:04 pm]
[Current Location |Hommmme]
[Current Mood | happy]
[Current Music |Kanye West - Heard 'Em Say]

I return to Englandland finally. I have actually been home for 2 days now, but I only just got time to update now.

'So how was Barcelona?' I hear you all say. Barcelona was gorgeous. The weather was very temperamental however, it was either blazing sunshine or pissing down with rain. We had someamazing storms and it was lovely to sit on the balcony and watch the lightning and hear the thunder, especially over the mountains. I have grown a fondness for mountains and lakes and suchlike because of where we stayed. We stayed just outside of Barcelona about an hour's drive away, it was lovely, so peaceful and just nice. The hotel was lovely, the people were not so much. The fellow guests were all either cockneys or jocks. So they were either drunk or complaining... how very stereotypical. But the staff were lovely, we always tend to befriend the staff, my mother is such a flirt. The food was nice too, they had REALLY nice chicken stuff one night, I wanted MOREMOREMORE but there was none left, I was very sad. The day we went into Barcelona city centre it was starerodding with rain but it was lovely. We had food and then it stopped raining. We got lost, twice but whilst being lost we saw the Nou Camp and we went toa Dali Exhibition... for my mother. She's a huge fan. We didn't get to see Gaudi's cathedral however. There are so many interesting buildings in Barcelona you really have NO idea. There was one with a coloured roof, all tiled, I took a picture because I thought it was pretty. On the train back to the resort it was maad, this Spanish woman started talking to me and I didn't understand A WORD. She didn't understand why I wasn't responding :( I wish I spoke Spanish. So that was the holiday was. I do not approve of being woken up at 4:30 am to fly at 8:15am to come home to the FUCKING freezing. It is not win. Oh and my mother's snoring is not win either. I think I slept 2 nights out of the 7 that I was there... never mind. I will live.

So now that I'm home it's back to the real world. Went to work today to get my keys and have been informed I am working 7:30 - 6 next wednesday... this does not make for a happy Steffi! Why in the world do stock takes exist?? AHHH. Never mind!! It's almost payday, which means it's almost time to purchase tickets and such like for my travels. [OH Kylie, I might be able to fit you into my busybusy plans sometime in the summer! Newcastle is awesome for shopping!] I am not as stressed now as I was before about going to London, I have realised I' m one of these people who HATES asking for help but I shall swallow my pride and ask Hannah to help me, or Nat or Brit or some other extra nice London person. I'm more excited than anything to go to London, it still kind of freaks me out a bit because of the sheer scale of it but hey never mind! [haha we watched the London news every day on holiday, London is shitttttt, I am superior for I am a Geordie. I win]

Can anyone else tell me why it's so hard to read Russell Brand's autobiography? He's funny but not in writing. I;ve been trying to read it for about 4 months now and I'm STILL not finished. Am I just not interested enough or something? GOD KNOWS.

It's almost time for the new series of The Hills to start. YAYYY. WINNNNN. I r happy.
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